September 2019

The month started with CJ and I were stressed about school.  CJ because her graders were not as good as she liked and she really missed her friends.  For me, it was the same at work.  I just can not sleep. On Saturday, CJ volunteered at another Clemson game.  This time I dropped her off at 8:30 in the morning and she did not get back until 10:00 at night. She was supposed to be home by 9:00 so I was so worried when I had not heard from her after 9:00.  I drove to the school and saw that everyone's cars where there. I was worried that something happened.  Finally, she called and it turned out that the traffic was really bad and they would be late coming back. I told her that I had to get the find a friend app so that I did not worry so much.

Sunday was the first day of Hebrew school.  I did the pancake breakfast.  I had made a mess of the kitchen but it was all good.  CJ was amazing helping me set up and get everything ready. CJ said that she really enjoyed Rabbi as her teacher.  She was upset that her friend Rosie seemed to be mean to her and said things that even the Rabbi had to tell her that was not very nice.  She just said that it really seemed like she had no friends this year which was very sad to hear.

I was glad to get sleep over the weekend because again I was not able to sleep during the week.  On Thursday, Elinor invited me again to go with her to the movies.  We went to see Dowton Abby and CJ stayed with Millie and get to spend time with her best friend.  The movie was great and CJ was much happier getting to spend time with Millie.

By Friday I was so tired. I did not want to go to Temple last night. Too tired and down about money and the fact that I could not pay my Temple dues.  I am feeling that I am not welcome because I should be helping pay my part.  I know that religion should not be about money but I just feel that way. But CJ so wanted to go so I get in the car to take her. The rain and wind were very strong so I told her I was turning around and we were staying home. So she decided to do her own service at home. Saying all the prayers, readings from the Torah which she did not understand, so she found a commentary online to help her understand it better. I really have an amazing kid. I know I should not have taken a picture but I could not help it. No one would believe a 14-year-old would do this when a parent says they do not want to go to church.

The next weekend was the Maulden BBQ contest.  CJ stayed with Jay all night and was really good in the morning.  Normally she is really tired and cranky but this time she was not.  She worked really hard to help me with servicing.  Jay was so tired on Saturday and because we did not do well at the contest he was very disappointed.  He came home and just went to sleep and stayed asleep until the next day.  

Friday CJ wanted to go to temple again and I was so tired but this time I gave in and we went.  She told me on the way home that when she goes to temple or Jewish events she just feels like herself.  I am so glad that I have such a wonderful child.

Sunday was the start of Rosh Hashanah.  We had to get to the temple just a bit early so that CJ could attend choir practice.  We were a little early so we went to the Asian store.  CJ has so been wanting a Ramonaide.  She was so happy.

She did a great job singing.  I was a little put off by the temple president's speech.  I felt like all that he was looking for was money and give no recognition for those of us that do not have the money but put in a lot of time at the temple.  Rabbi's speech was good which saved it.  The next day we got up and went to the temple.   CJ had a solo and did a great just like aways. It was a nice service and fun watching CJ.  

CJ was worried about missing school and stressing out.  So we left lunch early so I could take her back to school at least for the last 40 minutes. She was really worried about not getting her shirt for ROTC and by the time that she got back to the school they had given her shirt to someone else.  So all of her worry about missing school was for nothing.  She ended up having to just march in her good clothes for the last 30 minutes of class.  For her other classes, we just had to make arrangements for her to stay after school to get some of her work completed that she missed.  She said that she did not what to take Yom Kippur off because she was so worried about missing more school.